Personal Reflection

I’m me.

Hi there.

I haven’t written in so long that it seems almost weird to start. I’m not sure where to start or where I plan to take this but all I know is that I enjoy writing…. so write I will.

I’m in such a great place right now. I feel like I’m me again and after years of living as something completely different I can honestly say there’s nothing greater than being who you actually are.

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I’ve been living my life according to how I’d like to live it. Honouring my values and accepting myself and others as they are. If things don’t mesh well, I move on. I let go. Recently I lost a “relationship” and a job and numerous other things all in one swift crash. Thankfully I had already been building a foundation of self love and have a great support system that this was probably the first time in my life that I looked at a negative as a positive and thanked the universe for these endings.

Endings can be difficult. They are difficult. However, I see now that when one looks ahead with an open heart full of gratitude and wonder – the world delivers.

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I took off on what I now see was a LIFE CHANGING solo trip. I backpacked through Nicaragua and Costa Rica alone. It was amazing. I had ups, I had downs, I met so many interesting and inspiring people…. I learned more in February 2018 than I think I ever have in my life.

One thing I think is making all the difference is my feelings and how I accept them, feel them fully and let them go. We are naturally programmed to suppress our negative emotions and distract, ignore, numb or avoid them. I just couldn’t live like that anymore….so I started really pushing myself to feel those uncomfortable things as the surfaced and when it got scary….I went deeper. I asked myself where they were coming from, what I needed and looked at the opportunity to satisfy those empty unmet needs MYSELF. I don’t judge myself for feeling. I accept myself and how I feel and let them go.

I am so grateful for the time that was given to me right now. I have the opportunity to delve into how I’d like to spend my time and all signs point to nature 🙂 ….trees specifically. I can’t get enough of them and ever since I arrived back from my trip I see the world, myself and nature with new eyes. It’s almost magical.

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Anyway, I’m not really sure how this writing will progress but I think I’m ready to start sharing my story and I look forward to the journey of true self love.

I am Alison and I am love.

….and love is one powerful mother fucka.

I keep telling people – it’s good to be back…. and it is, oh it is!! I’m Alison again and nothing could be better than that 🙂

 

 

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